Thursday, November 12, 2015

ATF: Justin and Stan

This series will include as many of my all-time favorite (ATF) tunes as I can get my grubby little hands on (so to speak).  Now, each one included in each edition will have some connection with the other—albeit only as a figment of my imagination, but they will not be numbered.  For I just cannot bring myself to rate some higher than others.  So, this will not be a countdown, but if you are enjoying them as much as I do, it won’t matter.  Besides, with no countdown, this could go on forever and ever!  Oh, and despite the fact that there is absolutely no way your musical tastes could be as exquisite as mine, I welcome any suggestions you might dare to make.  For I am, after all, quite magnanimous by nature.



Hate Me
Blue October
Hi Justin. This is your mother. It is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night. It made me a little nervous, and a little… Well, it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just want to make sure you are really okay, and I wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication, too. You know I love ya, and… Take care, honey. I know you’re under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye Bye!

I have to block out thoughts of you
So I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape
To remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head
That make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you
Will you never call again
And will you never say that you love me
Just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me
It is I that wanted this

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see
What’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months
It’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
Is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you
For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
On things like suicide and hate
You made me compliment myself
When it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so f#$%ing far away
That I’ll never cross your mind
And do what it takes in your heart
To leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait
Yeah wait’s hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what’s good for you

And when the sad hard eyes
Say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
For every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy
I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying
And I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling
Make it go away
Just make a smile come back
And shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered
How could you do this to me

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait
Yeah wait’s hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what’s good for you

Link: [Eminem]


Stan
Eminem
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could
It'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me
That it's not so bad
It's not so bad
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could
I'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me
That it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Dear Slim
I wrote you
But you still ain't callin'
I left my cell
My pager
And my home phone
At the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn
You must not have got 'em
It probably was a problem
At the post office or somethin'
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
But anyways
F#%k it
What's been up man
How's your daughter
My girlfriend's pregnant too
I'm out to be a father
If I have a daughter
Guess what I'm a call her
I'm a name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too
I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some biatch
Who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this every day
But I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground $@it that you did with Scam
I got a room full of your posters
And your pictures man
I like the $@it you did with Ruckus too
That $@it was fat
Anyways
I hope you get this man
Hit me back
Just to chat
Truly yours
Your biggest fan
This is Stan

My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could
It'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me
That it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Dear Slim
You still ain't called or wrote
I hope you have the chance
I ain't mad
I just think it's f#%ked up
You don't answer fans
If you didn't want to talk to me outside the concert
You didn't have to
But you could've signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man
He's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you
For four hours
And you just said
No
That's pretty $@itty man
You're like his f#%kin' idol
He wants to be just like you man
He likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad
Though I just don't like bein' lied to
Remember when we met in Denver
You said if I write to you
You would write back
See
I'm just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither
He used to always cheat on my mom
And beat her
I can relate to what you're sayin' in your songs
So when I have a $@itty day
I drift away and put 'em on
‘Cause I don't really got $@it else
So that $@it helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself
To see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline
The pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real
And I respect you
‘Cause you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous
'Cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like l know you Slim
No one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us
Growing up
You've gotta call me man
I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours Stan
P.S.
We should be together too

My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could
It'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me
That it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Dear Mister I'm too good to call or write my fans
This'll be the last package I ever send you’re a$$
It's been six months and still no word
I don't deserve it
I know you got my last two letters
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you
I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now
I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim
I drank a fifth of vodka
Ya dare me to drive
You know this song by Phil Collins
From the air in the night
About that guy
Who could have saved that other guy
From drowning but didn't
Then Phil saw it all
Then at his show he found him
That's kinda how this is
You could have rescued me from drowning
Now it's too late
I'm on a thousand downers now
I'm drowsy
And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know
I ripped all your pictures off the wall
I loved you Slim
We could have been together
Think about it
You ruined it now
I hope you can't sleep
And you dream about it
And when you dream
I hope you can't sleep
And you scream about it
I hope your conscious eats at you
And you can't breathe without me
See Slim
Shut up biatch
I'm trying to talk
Hey Slim
That's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk
But I didn't slit her throat
I just tied her up
See I ain't like you
'Cause if she suffocates
She'll suffer more
And then she'll die too
Well gotta go
I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh $@it
I forgot
How am I supposed to send this $@it out

My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could
It'd all be gray
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me
That it's not so bad
It's not so bad

Dear Stan
I meant to write you sooner
But I've just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now
How far along is she
Look
I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
And here's an autograph for your brother
I wrote it on your Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show
I must have missed you
Don't think I did that $@it intentionally
Just to dis you
And what's this $@it you said about
You like to cut your wrist too
I say that $@it just clownin' dawg
C'mon
How f#%ked up is you
You got some issues Stan
I think you need some counselin'
To help you’re a$$ from bouncin' off the walls
When you get down some
And what's this $@it about us meant to be together
That type of $@it'll make me not want us
To meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend
Need each other
Or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter
I just hope it reaches you in time
Before you hurt yourself
I think that you'll be doin' just fine
If you'd relax a little
I'm glad I inspire you
But Stan
Why are you so mad
Try to understand
That I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy $@it
I seen this one $@it on the news a couple weeks ago
That made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
And had his girlfriend in the trunk
And she was pregnant with his kid
And in the car they found a tape
But it didn't say who it was to
Come to think about it
His name was
It was you
Damn

Lyrics From: [eLyrics.net]

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8 comments:

  1. That voicemail message is such a flash of genius, isnt it!

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    1. Thanks for stopping by, my dear Jenny!!! Yes, and the song is so painfully real.

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    1. Thanks for stopping by, my dear Adullamite!!! Mutual.

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  3. I didn't listen to these but the lyrics for the first one are pretty strange

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    1. Thanks for stopping by, my dear Ann!!! Well, I have not exactly experiencing the same, but the song hits pretty close to home. Remembering those days helps me be more thankful for where I am today--even with the blur before my eyes.

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  4. I've never heard of "Blue October"...I've not missed much. Not my kind of music...not a fan of Eminem, either. But like in everything...each to their own. :)

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    1. Thanks for stopping by, my dear Lee!!! I don't think Blue October has been recording all that long, and I am not sure if they are still together.

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